Just a few after thoughts since reading a few people’s comments on here. I guess I’m not as bad as some people losing hundreds of thousands, but the demons are the same for all of us. Since I signed up to here a few hours ago I’ve checked Betfred about six times to see if they’ve given me any bonus cash to play with. I’m not sure what I’d do if they did to be honest. Gamble it, or bank it. Either way, there’s nothing there and I’ve nearly lasted a whole day without gambling. Big whoop for me. The thought of telling my loved ones still haunts me. I really don’t think I can face it. Maybe see if I can keep this up before I commit to anything. I’ve always taken pride in being straight. I talk a bit of shit, but who doesn’t. One thing I’ve never been though is a liar, so this is quite difficult for me. I think if I was asked out right I would confess all. But at the moment I’m telling myself that it’s not lying if nobody knows in the first place. Onward and upward.
edit: £250 credited from Betfred. lost it all instantly… then i played and lost the last £400 to my name. couldn’t last a day. can’t say i’m surprised.
Edit again: sold a signed football shirt and used the £100 straight away on Betfred. Won my £400 back. Finished with £1000. I can’t help myself. It’s going to be very hard to stop. Before I started this diary it had been 37 days straight gambling. I can’t just switch off can I?