Day #1 today. And here I am with my tail between my legs. Coulda been day #68, but oh well, it is what it is.
No point mourning over it. I’m getting myself together and trying to think business and how to secure a decent future for my family and myself.
A lot like Maverick, I’m pretty much unemployable. And if I had to get a 9 to 5 job which I never held (well other than 2 months when I was 25) I would be miserable.
I have to stop thinking about the losses and think of the future and what I could do to make it good.
I had bad nightmares last night. I woke up because I was grinding my teeth really bad. Thank god I have bite-guard, would have broken my teeth without it.
From now staying away from any form of gambling, no matter how appealing or how fun or innocent it might seem. One bet for me is enough to unleash hell. Gambling puts way too much strain on me not only financially, but also on my health, my parenthood, my relationship with my wife, my sanity…
There was a time when gambling was a positive thing in my life, but those years are long gone and they’re not coming back. Never. It’s been nothing but misery last 7-8 years.
I’m dedicated to stopping it for good and never go there again. Never.