you thought i was going to say fail right? 🙂 no, i have day 1 under my belt, i don’t feel as good about it as what i thought i would but i think that’s just the realistic person in me knowing that this is a very small step and the worst is yet to come. to be fair, if no-one had offered me their kind words i’m not sure if i would have succeeded or not with this first day. so i picked my money up, of course i thought about placing another bet but i didnt, i put petrol in the car, bought some food, paid the last of my monthly bills with a little bit left over until pay day next week. do i want to regamble the extra bit of money i have left over, yes i do, 10 days ago i was ending the year with money in my pocket, 4 days ago i blew all my winnings plus another grand on top of that, i didnt know how i was going to eat or get to work, i was waking up with an overwhelming sadness and misery, today i have added to my debt but i am ok until pay day with a little bit left over, today i will be thankful for what i have. i even put up the xmas tree which i wasnt going to do and i also started a little saving pot, whenever i get a little extra, i will put it in there rather than gamble it. lets see what tomorrow brings.
