Hello, thanks for posting. I’m not sure about the bonus to be honest. It goes off what you’ve spent/lost over the week. I was genuinely hoping to just cash it in. But it proved to tempting. Just as if everyone knew, the topic of conversation over dinner was gambling last night. I didn’t know where to look. I feel so ashamed.
Today’s a new day. Day 1… Again…
I slept better last night. It’s the first time for about 6 nights I’ve not been alone in bed with my thoughts. I Woke up with a sense of dread as I remembered what I’d done. Got a horrible numb feeling in my stomach that’s still lingering. Sold a pair of Dirk Kuyt’s match worn boots last night to another collector. £270 towards the rebuilding of my bank account. Or for something else maybe? Hopefully not…