I gambled again last night. I feel like a complete idiot! A different venue away from my hometown. Many times I could have walked away with my money. I’ve spent bill money! Why do i continue to fo this? I’m so disappointed in myself. I need to get a grip NOW! This is so stupid and demeaning and the fact is that I’m doing it to myself. I’m putting into jeopardy everything that I’ve worked for. I went with my kind of friend here who is a CG but doesn’t recognize it. It was a very negative experience. Then why can’t I stop? My creditors are going to get tired of my B.S. excuses for not paying on time. It’s time to buckle down and get it together NOW! Working full time for awhile. I’m calling on a job tomorrow. Right now, I’m feeling down, hate myself and need this vicious cycle to end.
