I would have failed by my own expectation and standard in the past, it used to make me feel more depress and down but not now, I have accepted my imperfection and willingness to change at a much slower pace. The progress will come surely and slowly.
Positive
1. I have manage to focus and discipline myself to fast for 20 hours on the first day, it was an achievement for me because I knew it is very tempting to snack and eat in the middle just like what happen to me in the last few days when I struggle and fail in my early attempt at intermittent fasting.
2. I was focus and have one meal a day today (OMAD)
Negative / Wrong
My barrier is not shut completely, first day was imperfect.
1. I cannot resist the food on the table, I allow myself to take in carbs and small amount of sugar on my first day of low carbs, low sugar and high fat diet.
I am happy and satisfied with the baby step progress made on the first day today, I can only get better and be good at it over time.
This was so different from my early years in recovery. I would beat up myself all the times for my imperfection and failure in my recovery, it was all or nothing, perfection or failure.
Today I pray to God for strength, courage and wisdom to do the right thing!
I thank God for the recovery today that has provided me peace,happiness, and joy today despite all my brokeness and imperfections.