Dear diary
When I travel to different places, groups and people to deliver the message.
I risk being label, shame, criticize, ridicule, judge, unpopular and hated.
After I have handed over my will and my life over to the care of God, God has help me to do what I cannot do for myself in recovery.
I learn how to “give my all” and not “give out of surplus.” when serving.
I find a newfound strength to remain calm, courage to face the fear, humility and confident to face all these difficult people when serving. I am happy to rest on the Lord, I no longer fear being rejected by other people. I do not have to be a doormat or a people pleaser anymore.
I will not be able to do the job if I do not know how to love and give unconditionally without any expectation of the outcome, good or bad.
I am responsible for the effort when I serve, but I have learn to leave the result to God. It is all God’s timing, not mine.
I do not judge the people and I do not control the people. I must accept their choices in life.