(((Carole))) so glad that you posted and have been gamble free since early April. Gambling is such a downward spiral when it gets a hold on us again. I can’t gamble as I know that I would be back to those thoughts/urges all the time. Not being able to think of anything but getting to the Casino, trying to find money to gamble, hating myself. YUCK!!! It’s interesting as pay day was always a trigger for me and I would leave work early on the Friday so that I could get some time in. Originally I would go after supper on a Friday payday and then I would be there late as I had lost too much money and would be chasing to get my money back. I would then leave when I got some back, but eventually I did not leave and just kept putting in all the money I won. It is strange how money does not seem to have any value when we are gambling. I would not buy something for myself as it was too expensive, but hey, it was okay to throw it all away in a machine!!! I am sorry Carole, that I am saying all this on your page. I don’t know where it came from.
Are you moved back yet, or do you still have to empty out your apartment? It sounds as if you are enjoying spending time with your granddaughters. I know that they will have missed having you living close to them. I am sure that they are absolutely thrilled that you have moved back to the country. It is a nice time to be back in the country when spring and summer and all the new life springing up around you. Take care and keep posting now that your granddaughter has fixed the machine so that you can get into it.
