There’s no need to apologise JP, it’s what gambling does to us. You will find yourself one day, hopefully sooner, rather than later.
It’s hard to get over the absolute nonsense that we’ve done for years and years, and we’re on the bottom that’s where we are. Suicide is a very real consideration for many CGs when the ship hits the fan. In fact it was always quite black and white to me. “Win my way out of the shite, or top myself” Simple as that….More ludicrous than a truck load of crunchy nut cornflakes.
Keep posting JP, however you are feeling. Do you have any precautions in place for your wages on your next payday?
Have you thought of getting your wages paid directly into your brothers or daughters account?