Thanks for all your posts and support it is greatly received.
Charles you are a very good man, I am very happy to know you and your post made me laugh (in a good way), as we both well know if nothing changes then nothing changes right? Well I suppose I was guilty of changing nothing and honestly thought I would be able to beat the addiction with not having every barrier possible in place……and off course I couldn’t.
1. I have changed my bank details at work so all my wages go direct into my wife’s account (I have no access to that what so ever)
2. I have banned from all the remaining places I have kept gambling (new places I found after banning from my original locals), not impossible to find new places but will be a right pain and effort to get to!
3. I have only one bank account and card and my wife will drip feed money into it (from my wages) as and when I need, will provide receipts for every penny spent.
4. I have started to go back to GA meetings although the local meeting I go to I just don’t like and really struggle to interact with the people, I used to drive 1 hour each way to go to a GA meeting that was over 40 miles away once a week because I liked it so much and really found it worked miracles for me (while attending I had nearly 1 year gamble free), I will keep trying, unable to make that meeting anymore due to work and looking after the kids, I know some people will say you made time to gamble so make time to go to a meeting, I have and I do but just cant make the time to spare 3 and half hours on a Monday night anymore, as we all know our circumstances change.
Anyway what number are we on………..well blah de blah de blah enough said!
I would like to thank each and everyone of you for your ongoing support and help, your words and meaning mean a great deal to me and I promise myself that just for today I will be the best person I can possibly be, take care and wish each and everyone of you all the very best.
I am old and feel even older but at least I am still in the world and I thank God for that.
At the moment I am trying to manage my financial situation and I have come to the conclusion that if I live and work until 75 years old all will be well!!!!!!!! but you know what a wise man told me many years ago, don’t worry about tomorrow as today has enough trouble of it’s own…………just for today I will concentrate on today.
Maverick