I can relate to the thought you want to sabotage yourself. I think subconsciously I do that too. I vowed in the spring to stop going to the boat and play the slots. Logically, I realize it is a constant roller coaster of win/loss/win/loss that does not stop. Then I went a few weeks ago and won. I vowed I would stop after hitting a good win. Of course, winning never was going to stop me. That encouraged me to go back and try again. I went less than a week ago and lost $100 and went back to the casino 3 times in the same day. Even if I am not addicted it is definitely becoming an addiction. I went back and forth to the boat 3 times in one day. What was I thinking!? I am determined to stop sabotaging my process and end slot play for good this time. I appreciate you all being here.
