Hi IDI
This is the best news I have heard all day! I have thought a couple of times about our chat last night and that you were finishing it hard and was hoping to catch up on chat shortly to catch up!
Your should be so so proud that you got through the night and did not give in! You should remind yourself how much achievement that is all down to you!
In the beginning I felt exactly the same and can relate to the feeling of just staying put and not doing anything. I forced myself to do something, anything. Taking my mind of things. I found even small things like hoovering the house made my mind more positive.
It will take time but every day is a fantastic achievement and it gets easier. Take every successful day as fuel to stop you resetting the clock!
I know you can do! Keep going!