[Jezi]

Bad day, havent slept properly in a long time. Have no apetite or lust to do anything really apart from what im obliged to. I hope this phase of withdrawal wont last much longer as im not sure how long anyone can function in this state. I keep forgetting things all the time and get in my head a lot even at work. Ive figured out that ive always had quite a selfdestrucrive way of living. I dont know anything else. I dont know what its like to live a normal life with only minor problems. I also keep shifting from positive to negative regarding my own ability to stop gambling for good.

I’ll try to join a group tonight.

Edit: couldnt get in,there was never a green button and then it dissapeared 🙁