Hi all,
I made it up to day 8 without gambling. Then last night I slipped up and spent £80 online. I have a rough few days and needed an escape from reality, only now I realise I should have controlled myself. The only positive I can take away from this is I wanted to put more on. But I didn’t. I got fed up of it.
Up until last night when I was sat all alone for the first time in years , I was doing ok, even after I received bad news last Wednesday. I still didn’t want to. But last night I had a moment where I just needed to get out my own head. And obviously my vice was there.
I feel like I’ve cheated myself and now am back to where I started last week. I’m closing all my accounts today.
I don’t want the temptation. Even getting gambling websites blocked on my phone internet and wifi.
I really feel hopeless and ashamed of myself today. I need to try harder.
Thanks