So, while trying to clean my computer of all gambling software etc I found an application. Out of curiosity I opened it, fully intending to bar myself. There was some money there. So I thought I would see how I felt if I played. It felt good. I won. Then said, cash it out now. BUt I didn’t – lost that and then found myself putting more in chasing it. Lost that. Then I closed the account, which I should have done before.
Just had a great chat with Harry from the site – you are amazing, I know what I have to do now. Never Gamble Again.
NGA. It’s such a waste of time and emotion, and sucks me dry. Even if I win I am not happy, as I want more. And if I lose I am unhappy. But what makes me most unhappy is that fact that it is the most stupid waste of time when I could be doing more productive things. Such as thinking about my life and planning for a gamble free future. No more lies, no more sneaking around, no more dreams. They are all empty.
I will dream of my son, my wife, my life. I will become less selfish and start thinking of others and those around me.
I accept, once and for all, I can not gamble. I am sick of this feeling. I hate it. I want to help others when I am better. I want to get a better perspective on my life.
I am going to take one day at a time.
I will tell the truth in all situations and avoid temptation.
I will be good and good will be me.
I will be back soon, and I love you all and wish everyone on this site a speedy recovery to full, happy and productive lives.