The last day of April and I don’t plan on gambling today. I still find it interesting that when you first start counting days that 30 days seems like a long time coming. How many times did I get to day 30 or 31 and then had to start all over again at day 1, or how many times did I get to day 6, 7, or whatever and never made it through a month. I was full of hope when I started the month, but never seem to be able to get through the month without gambling. I don’t think it matters whether it is the 1st, 2nd, 15th or 28th of the month that we last gambled we just have to focus on today. I always think back and the last day I played those machines was November 1, 2012 and I had pledged not to gamble that day, but did not keep the pledge. I suppose on November 2 I pledged again and have been able to stay away from then., but I am not cured, I know that all it would take is one dollar in a slot/vlt and it would be as if I had never left. It would be the same story, but who knows it could be even worse after not having played those machines for a long time. I have a healthy fear of those machines now. It is difficult to admit that you are powerless and have no control over yourself when you play slots/vlts, but it is the truth and although my life is not perfect, I know that gambling is not the answer. I will take it one day at a time. I will count my blessings. I will continue to work on myself. I will pray for strength to stay away. I will accept that I am a compulsive gambler. Wishing everyone a day free of gambling, because you know what, you are worth it!!!!
