So I started playing again on Friday, small bets, nothing crazy. Profited 140 on Friday, played today was up 200. Kept playing and lost it all. Was playing with a $500 bankroll so I was down 500, deposited another 500 in the hopes of recovering the 500 i had lost and went all in, Lost .
Now I’m down 1k and I’m not sure what to do. Made a deposit of 1.2k in the hopes of recovering, went all in and won but this was the first time i was questioning myself to even why i put myself in a position like this.
Gambling is no way of making money and not worth the stress. I didn’t know what to do. If i were to lost 1.2k the all in bet, that would mean i was down 2.2k. I am grateful to have won the all in, but it’s not worth it. I tried to chase a lost, it worked out well this time, but it wont end the same every time.
If i were to lost this all in, would have been down 2,2k. Knowing me , i would have probably chased the lost by depositing a 2.2k and going all in and losing it .making me down 4.4k.
That’s how it all starts. Going to Be Gambling free from now and hopefully refer to his post when i do get urges. I’m grateful to not be in serious shit such as selling a house, or car.
I feel like I’m going to relapse but hopefully, referring back to this post will help me. I just need an online job that can consume my time. I thought i could make this gambling thing a job but its too stressful when you’re in the hole.
Edit
Now that I’m not down,i lost that feeling of being scared of gambling and its only been a few minutes. i feel like playing small bets i can afford, like 50 or something. but i know I’m gonna chase the small loses. Was talking with a friend about this and he was saying how i have an addiction to everything when it comes to shopping to gaming. I have dedicated myself to one thing and not a bunch. I think that my problem.