Ah, so the question is – are you a “sports fan” or are you a fan of gambling on sports?
I used to think I was a sports fan. Though sometimes I wouldn’t want my team to score unless it was a certain player scoring? Sometimes I would only want them to score a certain number of goals/points? I might want my team to concede? Sometimes i even wanted them to lose?!!
What sort of “fan” was I?
Now I would say that I am a sports fan, i want my team to score, I dont care which player scores and no amount of goals is too many. I never want them to concede a goal.
See the difference?
Whether you are a true sports fan or not is something only you can fid out for yourself. If at the moment though you can’t enjoy watchuing a game without gambling on it then don’t watch. Do’t look at the odds/spread for a game either. Don’t look at results even if all you are thinking is about what you would have bet on.
My life revolved around gambling as well, finding other things to fill time was hard.
Do your family know about your gambling problems? or that you ahve decided to stop gambling? It will be important moving forward that they don’t talka bout any of their own gambloing with you.
I hope those thougths helped, you are not alone in haing gamblign as a large part of your life, it is important to find non gambling activities to fill that void.
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