I can go for walks etc. Thats all I can do at the moment. I dont have any money for anything else.I understand that my time needs to be filled. I fully understand where you are coming from.I do need to take my mind of thinking about gambling. I cant stop thinking of how im going to get in and out of work with no money. How i can buy food until the 25 of this month.To be honest i cant stop thinking about what ive done. I really do need to stop. Needing to stop and wanting to stop or two different things.This time i want to stop.I will try 100 per cent. My debts will always be there until im able to work on them. The first thing i need to do is to stop gambling. You are right I know i cant carry money. Its something i need to work at or with someone.My partner wont. Before my mother passed away she tryed to help me with this but i got aggressive in my behaviour – it was wrong. In the middle of addiction and couldnt think.My mother had cancer. she was fighting her own battle but still had time for me. What human being would do that…I did…it hurts. Maybe this is the wake up call what has happened to me this week or im very burnt out with gambling…..just to let you know i get a self exclusion form filled out a year ago in paddy power and they stilll let gamble in there shops for the year. On friday night when i lost my lost 230 euro a girl in paddy power told me she couldnt serve me. I asked why of course and she said i had filled out a self exclusion form. I said i filled the form out a year ago and why have paddy power let me gamble in here for the past two weeks and in a different shop for nearly one year since i filled out the form. She told me to contact there head office. so I did today. I spoke to regional branch manager and explained what happened. He asked me what do i want from this…..What a question …I wanted not to be let in or to loss my money. I told him i wanted some money back to start fresh.He said hell speak to the people where i gambled and get back to me. Thats my true story of getting yourself an Self Excluded from a bookies…Will talk soon. Thanks for nice comments and support.
