Started my week well and set fair for the weekend ,as off Friday aswell. This may seem shallow when a lot of people are going out of there minds with debt and lots of other things but this is my journal. The carnage that has resulted due to my gambling in my life has meant for the last 3 years I’ve been on my own .I always hope that if I could stay gambling free I could maybe meet someone again and start again . With my prison record it would be difficult to try and explain to someone without lying to them about my past life . Maybe getting way ahead of myself , need to be gambling free before I can do anything .,But commercial valentines day this week on a weekend that I’m off , so need to fill my time positively and not dwell to much on the past and be thankful for the things I do have x
