Ive lost hundreds of thousands of pounds on this. Ive won some too so like you and like everyone knows the highs are crazy and the lows are hell. The math of this though is an escalation of gambling like I have been going through now and then at some stage we completely skid of the road like i am doing now. At this stage you don´t pay your bills you just wait for the reminders. You wonder if you will have work to go to. You wonder if your family will allow you to stay or talk to you again and you wonder if you want to live at all because what comes as this point is just tears and horror. So the reality is yes it is fun but the costs are to high to bear. So if you can stop having fun do. I could´nt.
gl in your recovery.