Dear diary
Can I trust the people in my new cell group with my life?
Gambler like myself have a big problem with trust, I still have this problem today. It was not easy for me to trust another person, I have been disappointed by many, I will never trust them with my life easily. I was not surprise when another recovering gambler I met don’ t believe me too.
When I shared with this person where he can seek help, he didn’t believe me and wanted to go to another place, I didn’t stop him. After a few weeks, he showed up in the place I recommended him. The Higher Power was telling me not to give up carrying the message to suffering people even when I was not appreciated. Seeing the results and the Higher Power at work give me much confident, satisfaction and joy. It was always never about me. It was all about God and others.
In the meanwhile, I am not allowing anyone, any place or anything to stop me from seeking God and my recovery, I was disappointed by two incidents in one cell group, I find that the people in the group cannot be trusted with my life and recovery. It was important my recovery was not affected.
I immediately make plan to replace it with another cell group the next day to keep my support network alive and strong.
At the same time, I have inform a lady that I am leaving this group so that she will not approach me anymore to tell me how badly she was treated by a person from this group. This man have borrow money from her. I was caught in between because I attended the 2 groups that these people attended separately. All I wish was just to focus on my recovery and I need to protect my recovery all the times.
There is light in my life and I am very grateful to God for the messengers He has send me.
Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for protecting and saving me , and thank you for sending my guardian angels to walk this journey with me. They have touch me and my life have really change. Please bless these angels with good health. In Jesus ‘s name I pray. Amen.
