[hopelessbear]

I was where you are now. When it doesn’t matter when every time I closed my eyes. I was visualizing the wins and I dreamed about it everyday for the last 2 weeks before I hit my rock bottom. When I lost every last penny and thought of just ending my life. So the pain could stop. Those feelings will stay with you for awhile but I promise you. It will get better. You are not alone! Find something else to do to keep yourself busy for awhile.