[Dark Energy]

Day#2
tired from doing this again and again. anyhow today is the 2nd day in the 1st day I was not depressed as usual I had a numb feeling as I have avoided thinking about the consequences of what I did, I went to work and I worked normally, in fact, I notice a huge relief from stress compared with the last gambling day, but today “the 2nd day” all my demons popped up in the middle of the day, I couldn’t complete the day I felt down even doing the simplest of the tasks was not possible, my voice turned into this weak depressed tone that I don’t like, and I just left I couldn’t complete the day.

I understand that I should continue trying and yes I will do. but it is fuckin hard to deal with all these failures.

• This reply was modified 5 years ago by Dark Energy.