Been a week since I last posted. Still haven’t gambled but have wanted to – not the gut wrenching urge I usually have but an urge nonetheless.
Work last week was bad, I constantly feel tired and in pain so am shattered during the day, the work itself is stressful. In fact I’m in the process of applying for another job.
Also my brother rang to say his missus had had a bleed on the brain and was in intensive care in an induced coma. Got an update yesterday that she was off sedation and knew who she was and was speaking. I can’t begin to describe the relief I felt.
Me and my partner were due to go on holiday yesterday and I was worrying about leaving my pregnant daughter and the dogs at home. Her partner has had to self isolate cos his Mam tested positive for COVID-19 so can’t stay with her. And my son has booked to go to Wembley for the Italy-Spain game.
Well we set off on holiday and am so glad we did. Our caravan overlooks the sea so the view is fantastic. It’s on a quiet park – no entertainment so no amusements.
I wish I’d brought the dogs with us too and booked longer.
It’s a lot easier to resist the gambling urge when you recognise what has triggered it.
My brother blew most of his wages last month and the trigger was a nasty work colleague.
Half way through 2021 with only 3 mild gambling lapses is quite an achievement.
Oh and the diet only lasted a week- not the end of the world for me though, not even near.
