Day#66,
the storm didn’t end, still having urges to trad “gamble”, my gambling mind throwing ideas and ideas about trading, do it once, do it for only 2 or 3 days and go out of the market, put only this amount so the downside will be limited and so on many ideas but I had done it all in the past and nothing worked before so why it will work this time!!
I need to set down and focus on why these urges are coming now and how to deal with them, I have been resisting the temptation for 4 or 5 days now but if this will continue without any additional measures I will relapse.
this is a critical stage, I have good money with me, it has been more than two months since the last relapse so now it is either to relapse “do what I did in the last few years” and back to square zero, or break this loop and find new ways and move to the next stage of recovery.
