Not too sure where this trigger has come from, or why, but I’ve got a little voice in my head saying go to bingo, it’ll be okay – and justifications are coming thick and fast. But I know it’s a slow burning urge and the only way it will be fine is for me not to give in to the urge.
Actually I think I do know where it’s come from. Part of the Gordon Moody program is one to one sessions with a counsellor and we’re doing my timeline at the moment. My early years weren’t great and I’m not content in my current relationship. I’m 55 and with a man who feels more like a friend/child than a partner. But I want him to change and keep hoping he will. Just it’s been like that pretty much since we got back together 7 years ago.
I don’t trust my instincts. It feels easier accepting the status quo.
