[Dark Energy]

Day#56.
today was an interesting day, I had an urge to gamble, this will be the first input in my urges log “a SMART tool”
the urge came after a chat with friends regarding our finances and the future, and the first and easy solution “delusion” to the financial problem is to gamble and win. well, not this time! luckily I have scratched the back of all my cards in day#1 to prevent myself from doing an online deposit to a broker account, asking for a replacement card will take a week to receive it so the urge fades, the urge didn’t last more than 10 min, the cognitive part like reminding my self with the consequences and reminding my self it is a losing game played a part of keeping me safe but frankly, nothing works better than roadblocks.