Day#54
well, I got the consolidation loan, which means I have extra money under my control that I need to use to settle some other small debts, I had this extra money 2 days ago, and oddly enough this didn’t trigger any cravings nor urges to gamble, I am really glad for that.
I will need 3 to 4 days to get rid of this extra money as planned but so far I am half the way, but everything looks fine.
I had this great boost in energy and in self-confidence because I have extra money with me and I am in a better position from the financial security perspective. frankly, I felt ” normal for a short period ” I,e feeling like what a nongambler feels about gambling ” indifference to gambling”, I know it is wrong to feel that way so I reminded myself that I am a gambler and such feeling may lead me to act with fewer cautions and this will lead to slipping and then relapse.
anyhow it was a nice moment though.