5 days now since I last gambled. I do not have my debit card on me and went through my emails and dropbox account removing all photos I had taken of my debit card. I took the pictures to verify my account at the numerous casinos I gambled online at.
I have and am getting urges to gamble but need to stay strong. This week is bad financially but hey when is it not ?
I am making a payment to my sons mum tonight so hope she gets that tomorrow or the next day. Paying a council tax bill and then will have a little left over for food.
My work output was okay yesterday but could have been better. I wont / cant gamble today and my account is at zero. Had an appointment with the Drs tomorrow as I need to look at different meds. The Citrilopram knocked me for 6 but I am feeling it now …. those heavy thoughts …. worsening sleep pattern again. I hate it! Was such a good weekend and now back to the dreary life.
One nasty debt still massively outstanding I can not pay this week. Just not enough money. Last weeks gambling took care of that.