This is as honest as I can get
There is a pattern before every of my gambling slip and relapse
I would stop doing the things that has help me to stay away from gambling and
I would start doing the things that brings me closer to gambling
What did I do that help me stay away from gambling
1. I dare not find out the time and match fixture
2. I dare not study the odds for the match
3. I tell myself not to place the first bet
What did I do that brings me closer to gambling
1. I would check the match fixture for today or this weekend
2. Next I would check the odds for the match
3. Lastly I will decide how much to gamble
My emotions are not reliable; it always leads me to gamble or drinking.
I should not gamble or drink regardless what I feel.
Always work in progress
Last bet: 23 April 2024
Gamble free days: 656
One day at a time.