Why did I want to stop in the first place?
I was sick and tired of gambling at the time.
I was desperate to stop.
I want to stop so badly:
I didn’t care what everybody will think about me.
I didn’t care what everybody will say about me.
I didn’t care what everybody will feel about me.
I will do whatever it takes to stay stop.
I was so focus and committed to stop that I was not easily distracted by the temptations.
But…
After staying stop for a period of time:
After I lose my humility, I start to care about how others see me.
I become self-righteous, and self-seeking.
I will care about what everybody will think about me.
I will care about what everybody will say about me.
I will care about what everybody will feel about me.
After I lost my focus and commitment to stop,
I become easily distracted and tempted
I need to fixed my eyes and stay focus on God today.
I will treat today like my first gamble free day.
I only need to stop gambling today.
Tomorrow, I do the same.
One day at a time.
Last bet: 23 April 2024
Gamble free days: 584
This is a test.
I only need to give up my ways and be obedient