Well there you go Seri you have started.. you have started your journal.. its a place you can record your journey and have support at the same time. Well done for coming for help. Gambling addiction is a very sneaky one.. that is the single biggest thing i see in this addiction, how self deceptive it is…. its amazing really the trickery our brain comes up with to allow us to continue to gamble.. you have done the right thing and a wonderful step is put in place already by you by reaching out, seeking help and starting your journal.. the one on one helpline is good when you need to talk too.
Just get through today Seri.. break it down and get through short periods of time first.. when you get urges, try not to sit there and let them intensify.. if you let someone know straight away you have the urges then get busy and do something else.. you could also find Gamblers anonymous meetings in your area which are a good support too.
You can ban from gambling places, cut up cards, put blockers on computer, go to counselling, there is lots of help available.. and know this.. you are not alone…
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