Hi Iamhere!!
Thank you so much for your message. I really appreciate the support.
You said so many truths. The vicious cycle that truth that I must stop and the fact that it just takes so much of my time in my life goals are never achieved. And I know it does that to everybody so I’m not acting like I’m the only one affected by gambling, but the truth is this is my story and I need to change.
There are a few things that I have done number one I’ve written down my whys and I go over them each morning. These whys are of my lowest points to remind me of how bad my addiction can get. I’m getting back into the gym. I’m getting myself a schedule of stuff that I need to accomplish every day. And another thing is, I’ve put this into God‘s hands for the first time I’ve prayed about it. I continue to pray about it and I know Prayer without work is dead so I’m doing the work, but I’m really trusting God with my addiction.
I had a stretch couple years ago. I made it three months without gambling and I used the game band and it was very successful for me. So I went to download it probably about a month ago and it wasn’t blocking any of the website so I had to manually turn it on and I’ve learned through the process that like You can go around it just through a swipe of a button. So to me, it’s really not something that would help me. Cause when the urge comes, it can just be turned off instantly. There are a few other gambling site blockers that I looked at and all of them are the same thing they’re able to be removed or you can bypass them with a swipe of a button.
I have definitely disabled canceled my gambling account, but that is not very successful because I can call him or text them and they open it right back up. I’ve probably closed out my account over 100 times easily but they always welcome me back with open arms. I’m a sucker and I lose a lot of money to them so of course they’re not gonna permanently ban me.
As far as hanging over the finances, I’m not ready to do that at this time there’s a lot of loose ends financially that I need to tie up before that would ever be a possibility of me handing it over to my wife.
I believe there are some steps in place for me to have success one day at a time. I’m also going to join a GA meeting at least once a week. I drive a lot on Thursday. I think that would be a great thing to do on the way back home.
Thank you again for the message day two here I am