Hi guys 👋
It’s been a hot minute since I’ve written in my journal. I’ve tried popping on a couple of times, but life gets busy!
I’ve been crunching away at the debt still lingering over my gambling addiction, it feels like its been dragging along. I know that I’ve been paying it off quite rapidly, but a year and a bit of this grind has been exhausting. By the end of the year it should be all cleared up… I’M ALMOST there.
I’ve been feeling the mental exhaustion, frustration and overall disappointment over this remaining debt… gambling has crossed my mind. The ideas of “i could win the last bit, and pay it all off”, “I’d know when to walk away”. The time I’ve stayed clean has really provided me with mental clarity.
I still remember the disgust, the disappointment, the sickening feeling in my gut, the panick, and the shame i felt every time, EVERY TIME I gambled…
So even though I thought about it a couple times, I didn’t do it!
If I can do this, so can you ❤️