This is my reality check today. I asked the same question.
Early day in my recovery, I will question my purpose and what am I doing at the Sport betting house if I was not going to gamble?
I should not be there – what happen if I get tempted there and gamble?
I was strict with myself and I did not allow this event to happen.
If I like to watch a sporting event, I can do it in the comfort and safety of my home.
However, after staying gamble free for 510 days, I notice some changes, I have become less vigilant.
I question my purpose and why do I like to watch a sporting event at the Sport betting house?
I realize that my enemy never stop trying to attack me:
Telling me that I can watch the sporting event at the sport betting house
Telling me that I will not be tempted to gamble
Telling me that I am strong, I will not relapse
Telling me that I can control everything, I do not have to worry or fear that I gamble.
Telling me that I have no debt, I am not borrowing to gamble, I am only using my excess money to bet if I gamble
These are all lies!
I have relaxed and I have stop being strict with myself. I am beginning to compromise on what I can do and cannot do.
I have become complacent, over confident, proud and undiscipline.
My false confident, false belief, false hope has grown and I start to listen to all my lies.
Dear Heavenly Father,
You are my Creator, my Lord and Savior, Counselor and Healer, I ask and pray for your guidance and protection.
Father God, made me teachable, humble, and obedient. Father God, please remove any willfulness, hard hearted, self-righteousness in me. Keep me away from distraction, doubt and people who do not bring peace so that I can follow the path You have prepared for me.
Holy Spirit, help me to give up my ways and follow Your way. Father God, help me to follow Your word and live by faith. In Jesus’s merciful name I pray, Amen.