Hey everybody, I hope everyone’s doing well. Tomorrow will be two weeks that I’ve been free from gambling. All I can’t say is been easy. I will admit I’m in a good place and while it’s been tough hasn’t been really super tough just because I’m tired of that life. I’m tired of searching every second for a couple bucks 60 bucks 70 bucks to put in my account. I’m tired of every paycheck I get paid and by the end of the day my account says zero because I just keep putting money and put money in. That’s what I knew. I really had a problem with gambling is when payday came for five years ago. I would pay my bills first and then whatever I had left you know I might put 100 or $200 in my account and play. But as I got worse, my addiction it became gambling account was number one priority bills were secondary and sometimes often times they didn’t get paid and then I’m getting loans and then I’m getting deeper in debt. It’s just a vicious cycle. I will say this though since I’ve stopped gambling the last 13 days I’ve really just kept focus on bettering my life for myself and my family. I felt alive for the first time in a long time I’m not glued to my phone 24 seven I’m not waking up to check the scores. I’m not stopping in the middle conversation with my wife to see if my team is winning or losing. I’m able to do things without having to stop to check a score. It’s a very difficult feeling to explain but if I had to say a word, it’s freedom. I have the freedom to be in that moment. I know this thing can creep up at any moment. I’m I’m keeping guard. I’m proud of where I am. I know there’s a lot to do moving forward, but a lot of things are coming together for me in these 13 days, I can only imagine what’s gonna look in six months in a year five years 10 years like my life will be so much better. I know that, but as a saying goes One day at a time. I hope all of you have an awesome day.
