Finally got enough guts, in getting around to check what the last day was that I gambled on my bank statements…this was the last day, thank goodness…that makes it 40 days. 40 days of lots of soul searching, regret and after all these years finally being able to identify that I’m a CG. Today I feel I’m in a place of stuckness, knowing that I have something very important to do but not finding my voice. I know my horrible secret is going to change the dynamics in my relationship forever. The counsellor I spoke to yesterday thought there should be no secrets from my partner and I also need to tell him of my suicide plan, not so sure about this one…she thought he should know how bad things really got for me….would appreciate your thought on this one folks. Hope where ever you are in the world that people show your kindness and gratitude.
