Well….i got through the weekend, it wasn’t easy and i dont necessarily have the tools to get through days like that but i just binged on film after film, ate rubbish and basically frittered the hours away, not exactly how i wanted to spend my weekend but if it got the job done then I’m ok with that. I checked the football afterwards and there’s quite a few that i think i would have picked that would have let me down so that softens it a little bit….some days it feels like I’m going through a kind of cold turkey where i feel like i have to fight myself in the mirror to hold me back but for today i did not gamble and i have no intentions of stopping this fight.
I watched a film called a street cat named bob, that’s about a heroin addict that wants to get clean, it’s bloody scary to see the similarities between a drug addict and gambling addict