Hello out there!
My birthday is approaching soon, another year on this earth. Thinking about the years I wasted gambling, the money lost, the anxiety that followed, all the moments lost in time. The high highs and the low lows… I don’t miss them.
I can think back to the “win”, the one that flicked that switch in my brain, and changed me. I was about 24 years old, my mom and I popped into the casino by a restaurant where we had just ate. She gave me $20.00. At this point I maybe went to a casino like once or twice a year, socially. I sat down at this machine that was 0.25 with three lines. Max bet was like 0.75. So I was betting the max – no idea what I was doing.. and it landed on 3 red 7’s.. I was just sitting, looking around, no idea what was going on. I ended up winning $1000.00. Not much really, but a lot for me at 24. I remember that “wow moment”. The part of this day that I remember the most, was when I was walking around the casino and I saw this lady playing a $1 machine. She had won about 3 grand. I was like “woah!”, and she said to me “it’s not my money, it’s the casinos” and at the time, In my head I was like “yeah, you won the casino’s money”. After becoming a gambling addict, what she said made total sense. The money you win, will never be yours, the casino will take it.
This year, I am looking forward to continuing on this journey gambling free. 🙏
Hope everyone is well. If you’re reading this, just keep going, one day at a time, it does get better. ❤️