hello i am 21 years old(soon 22) i have a been gambling for about 5 years.
for the first two years it wasn’t that serious i considered it like a game betting very low amounts of money and just playing for fun. one time i put higher bet and won big like 200$(ik it isn’t much but still)then after that i started betting around 1$ and won about 1500$ and that same day i lost 1000$. it was like i just lose control when playing.
it kind of spiked my gambling addiction when winning that much and it was ongoing battle like i stop for couple of monts at most and the urge stars going again.then the guilt comes in and just destroys me mentally and i feel like im not the same as i was. it took something from me and its left me empty.today i took my last bet and lost 1000$. i always was like i know i have a problem and im not gonna tell anyone keep it to myself ill handle it not think about it but i was in this delusion for 2 years, also this is the first time im telling someone i have a gambling addiction and it is a serious problem.
your posts made me want to type here admit to myself that i have a problem and wanting to get rid of that feeling forever.
