Hello GT Forums. I slipped up again today.
14/01/25 is my Day 0.
You know, I stopped living consciously quite a long time ago. What I did was, I just kinda arranged my thoughts in a way that I won’t really care about practically anything. I decided to do so because of living in a harsh environment. That was my way of adaptation to it. I missed a crucial point. You cannot live like that forever. Was it a few years or a decade already? My life’s been miserable since that day. What day? Was it really a day that changed everything or a couple of years of destroying my life on purpose? You might tell me that if I don’t care why am I writing this now then. I don’t see the point either. Just another message to nowhere. My gambling problem is only a part of much worse and bigger anomaly that I’ve been dealing with since forever. I can’t tell if it kills me at some point or I’ll manage to live with it. Does it matter? Does anything matter? I’m still uncertain, fortunately or unfortunately.
