Day 43.
Well what a busy Wednesday – one of those days where you go go go.. and yet it feels like you didn’t do as much as you had planned.
I signed up for a 5:15am workout class tomorrow. I have to be there for 4:50 am. Seemed like a great idea when I signed up for it.. now I’m questioning it all 🤣🤣. Rather get a workout done in the morning, I already feel the burn!! Wish me luck!
I’ve been feeling less and less thoughts and urges to gamble as the days pass. I still have moments thay surface throughout my days that are filled with incredible guilt and disbelief of the money I’ve spent. As much as I dislike it, I need to acknowledge the value of the money I’ve lost. It’s a lot of money.
I have a vacation coming up to go to Arizona. One that I don’t believe I deserve or should be going on due to this money I’ve spent/lost. Such a mental mind game, definitely a lot if shame on my end.
I just remind myself that everyone’s journey is different, gambling has been one hell of a pot 🕳 hole, but this won’t be my life story. A small blip in the grand scheme of it all.
Till tomorrow! ❤️