42 days.
Starting to feel the shame and guilt really settle in as my CC bills roll in and I see the interest rate charge. A part of me is in disbelief of what I’ve done. What ugly mess. I know I’ll pay it off within the year, but what an utter disgusting waste of money. Money I work hard for, money that could have gone to a million different and better things. I hate this feeling, but I know I need to really go through this to know the depth of my decisions.
Aside from thinking about the CC debt I’ve acquired, my day was pretty good. Worked, had a massage, did some philosophy, and yeah just a better day in general, definitely more productive without gambling in it!!
I do find at times I need to read positive stories of other gamblers that have been successful in kicking it, it’s so empowering. . I then read the sad stories and messages from the thousands of people on reddit that are in complete despair. We are all in the same boat, trying to stay-a-float, and overcome this addiction. But – there is hope and this is all apart of my success story. ❤️
Well off to bed I go!