I did not know I had other problems, it took me many years to finally realize that I suffer from other mental conditions such as impulse control disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, emotional dysregulation disorder
It probably explain my long and difficult lifetime struggles in recovery. I could not keep a straight line, I always drift away and had to constantly made very painful adjustment to correct myself each time in life.
I am not here to compare myself with others, I have not been able to obtain complete abstinence or perfection in my recovery.
I have learn to accept and live with the curve balls throw at me. I have learn to be at peace with myself and I have learn to be happy and grateful for the progress that I made. They did not come easy for me.
Everything is not ok but I am ok. I am grateful to be alive today.
I shall follow your words to stay gamble free all the way to the end today.