[asdfghost]

Shitty day today. Lost a lot of time to you know what.
First time didn’t lose any money. As if it’s something to be glad about.
I’m a disgusting unhuman being. Installed old ass betting app on my phone even though I’ve blocked my account in another, almost two weeks ago.
I’ve deleted it now. I can’t recover my nerves and time. I can’t get back lost opportunities through the years of addiction,
can’t repair broken mental health, can’t live my life as if I’ve never placed a bet.
I want to cry.