What was different and what are the changes I experience recently?
1. Ever since March this year, the weather has been very hot and I was very stress and affected by the heat.
2. I could feel the tension and stress in my body and mind. I blame them on the unbearable heat and my long working hours until I realise that my stomach feels bloated and I was bleeding when passing motion.
3. I was scrubbing dead skin off my face due to my eczema. Eczema is another source of my stress.
4. Renovation at home lasted from 25 April to 7 May and caused a lot of stress from inconveniences to my daily living. I was also worried about additional financial burden from the renovation.
5. I have recovered from cough and phlegm after 2 weeks recently, it has made working tough and stressful. I was more tired at work than usual, I do not have the energy to stay awake and alert for 12 hours as a result of the sickness.
These are the things that I need to adapt and survive during this time every year.
Now I shall reset and reorganize myself. Pick myself up again, dust myself and move on.
I am telling myself to never stay down and give up trying. Seek help if necessary.
I only need to stay focus on today, tomorrow I will do the same.
I do not need to turn to any form of gambling for fun and feel good.
Gambling is not a solution to any problem.
I can always turn to my Higher Power;
I can repent; I can stop and turn back my direction away from wrongdoing;
I can move away from darkness and follow the light.
I pray for mercy, grace and forgiveness from God.
I can find happiness, joy, satisfaction, hope, calm and peace from the progress in recovery.
This journey must continue.
- This reply was modified 11 months, 1 week ago by kin.