Autobiography of an addict in 5 short chapters
Chapter 1
I walk down the street, there is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in, I am lost, I am hopeless.
It takes forever to find a way out.
Chapter 2
I walk down the same street, there is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I dun see it, I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But I believe it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.
Chapter 3
I walk down the same street, there is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I can see it is there, I still fall in, it is a habit.
I know where I am. It is my fault.
I get out immediately.
Chapter 4
I walk down the same street, there is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.
Chapter 5
I walk down another street.
Dear diary,
I have a slip and place my first bet on 31st March 2024, it is a habit.
Compulsive gambling is a progressive illness.
I have started gambling and if I continue gambling,
it will lead to compulsive behavior and soon I will be out of control.
I need to stop. I need to repent before it is too late.
Win/lose in my first bet, I find myself unable to resist the next bet.
I do not wish to chase winning or losing until I lose my self-control completely.
If I stay gamble free for the next 24 hours, it will be my first gamble free day.
I do not have to start all over again, I do not lose my experience, knowledge and recovery.
I accept what has happen. I shall move on with life.
My life has improve when I stayed gamble free.
Gambling is a lie. I am not going to believe this lie and false hope.
I get out immediately.
Every slip and relapse is a lesson and learning opportunity.