Hi ,just needed to say i went to two GA meetings once again ,in the hopes of finding face to face support,but nope .so feeling super stupid right now.cant go to another before my banning ends.
Yup its that time again.they say if nothing changes nothing changes ,well nothings changed to be honest,day after day ,year after year.
They say gambling takes lives ,well it took mine a long time ago.
Yet again alone i my head my thoughts are not so good,thinking this dam addiction better hurry up and kill me.
Cause this endless addiction i have for seeking face to face support is equeally taking its toll on me.
Im a many things in this life ,and a different person to many.
But when i wake up im always the same person to me.
Do i like me .hell no.so how the heck should i expect others too.
Please dont respond to this it will only hurt more.
running running running God make it stop!
