I do not need to understand
I only need to stop gambling today.
I cannot guarantee that I can stop gambling
(for the rest of my life, for the rest of the year, for the rest of the month, for the rest of the week.)
but I can stop gambling today.
The voice maybe loud and convincing;
The thought maybe justifiable, rational and reasonable to gamble;
I can choose not to listen to this voice or follow this thought;
I can choose to be disobedient to this voice and thought;
I can stop gambling today.
Even when I have weak faith, believe, trust and confident, it is enough.
I can stop gambling today.
I can be distracted or tempted;
have urges and craving;
be selfish, self-centered, self-seeking;
become greedy, discontented and ungrateful;
feel fearful, anxious and insecure that money is not enough;
feeling weak and vulnerable;
lose my focus and concentration in recovery.
I can stop gambling today.
Dear God, I am a sinner, I am not perfect,
I knee before you and ask for your forgiveness and help, have mercy on me.
I pray in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. (Psalm 23)